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I am interested in EVERYTHING at the moment, and I don't know why

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Emily Chappell
Oct 07, 2024
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Dear all,

Perhaps you’ll accuse me of being over-optimistic, but I’m pleased to report that this health-related dip in my ultra-cycling career is not without its silver linings.

As I think I’ve written before, I’d always considered this the worst-case scenario. If I couldn’t cycle (or couldn’t cycle as much), I’d have lost the most central part of myself, and not only would this probably lead to a huge existential crisis – I’d also, more practically, be foisted with a miserable surplus of time and energy, and have nothing to do with it beyond mourning the daily hours of cycling I had lost. To my relief, it hasn’t been anywhere near that bad. There are moments of grief, I’ll admit (especially when I watch dawn break from my desk, as I am now, and remember how I felt when I was cycling into it after a night on the bike) but in general I’m able to focus my attentions on everything else I have going on.

Here I am, very very tired after nine hours of learning how to use kettlebells properly. (Obviously we weren’t lifting them for that entire time, otherwise I’d probably have been unconscious by this point.)

And, unexpectedly, this is quite a lot. I’ve learned once again that nature abhors a vacuum – that, if you create a space of any sort, something will have to surge in to fill it. And right now, for me, that thing is learning.

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